ToT: There's a hole in the bucket dear Liza, dear Liza.

TOPIC:
Bucket List-what are the top 10 (or 20 or 30, etc..) things you want to do/accomplish before you, well, kick the bucket? Have you already accomplished some things from your bucket list? What are they?

Soo...a bucket list.  Easy enough, right?  RIGHT?!?

Wrong.  So very wrong.  I clearly need to put "Stop overthinking everything" on my stinkin' bucket list.  Y'all know I can totally overthink something until it isn't fun anymore.

Cue my LACK OF a bucket list.

If I had a superpower, it would be to overthink having a superpower hence me not actually having one.  And I'm not even sure that sentence even makes sense.

I haven't read the other ToTers' bucket lists.  I don't allow myself to read their entries before I write mine.  But I'm assuming that many of them have cool things on there like "Go to China."  Or "Skydive."  Or "Run a Super Marathon."  I'm totally not sure about that last one...I'm not even sure there is such a thing as a Super Marathon.  But if there is, I bet that's on Michelle's bucket list.

All of those things are PERFECTLY AWESOME and doable things to put on a bucket list.  They are the things people are SUPPOSED to put on bucket lists.  Yet I can't bring myself to actually make a bucket list.

I'm sure you are all wondering why.  Or not.  But I'm going to try and tell you anyway. 

First of all, I don't do well with commitment.  Being married and having a child and a job that I've been at longer than a few years is something of a feat for me.  I don't like to say things or do things unless I ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY mean them.  And if I make a bucket list in writing, then I have to...well...follow through or something.  Yikes.  Yikes indeed.

Second of all, I feel like my bucket list would make me sound like I take life entirely too seriously (but it sort of looks like I'm taking care of that RIGHTNOW) or that I think I've somehow transcended to another life.  The things on my bucket list would be too vague and weird for the general population.  There would be things like "Make peace with my struggle between spirituality, organized religion and God."  And things like "Learn how to not take things so personally."  And then one like "Don't tell the internet things that will make people think you are certifiably insane."  You know, the usual things. :)

A bucket list, in my mind, is so you don't HAVE to think about those things above.  A bucket list should be a list of experiences one would like to have before the end of one's days.  It should be lighthearted.  It should be fun.  It should NOT BE THIS EFFING HARD.

So, in my quest to not take life too seriously (which if you know me, you know that there is absolutely NO truth to me taking ANYTHING too seriously...it's quite the opposite 95% of the time), I have a very short bucket list.

My Wonderfully Outstanding Vague and Totally Manageable Bucket List:

• Don't overthink.
• Learn to let go.
• Forgive.
• Love.
• Fly by the seat of my pants.
• Enjoy the flying mentioned above.

That's IT.  If I go to China, GREAT!!  If I don't, you can bet your sweet ass that I'm doing something JUST as outstanding in my own world. If I decide to join Michelle on that Super Marathon, AWESOME!  If not, I'll just have races with Jayna in the backyard.

The truth is that I really, truly love my life and the people in it.  I love my experiences, good or bad.  The bad ones, of course, are loved in retrospect as lessons.  I cherish the good ones for what they are.  I feel like I live my bucket list everyday of my life.

But really?  I'd like to learn how to fly an airplane. :)

Go see the other Bucket Lists to the right!!  I'm sure they are WAY better than mine.