I did it...

I left her and came to work. And I hate it. I hear it does get easier. I'm hoping that happens soon.

I just can't believe that in 3 days my baby will be 7 weeks old. Although most weeks have been trying, frustrating and just plain bad, I still don't want to wish away the time. Before I know it, she'll be going to school. I'm not ready for her to grow up...

She's growing so very fast. She no longer fits into any of her newborn onesies. She has a very long torso and little short legs, so she can still wear her newborn pants...for now. When I put them on her this morning, I noticed that they are getting a little short. The 3 month ones are still too long, but I'm sure that will soon change. It seems that all I do is buy clothes for her and she still doesn't have that many!

She slept for 9 hours last night with a little fussing and only one diaper change...NO EATING!! And she was an absolute MANIAC this morning. The doctor told me to not let her go that long without eating, but I ignored her. Every morning at about 2am she has a short fussy period where she stays mostly asleep, but wiggles and makes alot of noise. She does this for about 30 minutes or so. I can't decide if I should wake her all the way to eat when she does that so she won't be a maniac in the morning or if I should just let her be a maniac. When she goes that long without eating, she fusses as she's eating which causes her to suck in TONS of air and she gets a bellyache...not to mention the fact that she's gulping down milk from my engorged boobs. I even pump in the middle of the night and it doesn't seem to matter. Maybe I'll try waking her tonight to see if it even makes a difference.

I'm sad and happy all at the same time. She is so good for Summer and she likes it there, so I should be happy...right? But now I don't get to spend so much time with her and that makes me cry. No one told me this would be so difficult...