- Friends. I know...weird. I struggle with most aspects that go along with having friends, making friends, keeping friends, etc. For all of my younger years, I had a "best friend." Then I got to high school and I had a plethora of different kinds of friends...the goth kids, the alternative kids, the preppy kids, the smart kids, the troublemakers...I was, in some form or another, a part of almost every group of kids. My longtime group of friends and I sort of went our separate ways, but not in a bad way. We were growing up...and that's hard to do and stay close with people. And now here I am, almost 29 (hahaha!!), and still struggling with friends. I tend to jump in with both feet. A friend asks me for help and I generally go above and beyond. I am quick to help people and that often leaves me disappointed. Not that I help my friends and then they walk away. Just that some of the people that I've called friends in the past have used me for what they need and then put me back on the acquaintance list. I like being close with people. I like to see and talk to people atleast weekly. I like to know what's going on in their lives and help when I can. I like to have someone to talk to, that I can count on to pick up the phone or return an email, when I'm having a difficult time. It seems that these days it's very difficult to come by people who want that sort of friendship. I don't like to be ignored. If I call you, please call back. If you're going to say that we should get together, then follow up. If you never have the intention of getting together, just don't say it. It's rude. I am quick to find flaws, but quick (probably too quick) to forgive friends. And it's a constant struggle.
- Parenting. I'm sure I'm not alone here. Am I doing the right thing? Will I permanently damage Jayna if I'm too hard on her? Not hard enough? Will she know I love her? Will she hate me?
- Dieting. I've never been a good dieter. For most of my life I've been able to eat what I want and not worry about it. That is definitely changing. I have good self control with other things, but dieting just seems to go to the wayside.
- Research. I do research on EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. And the majority of the time, it is very helpful and aids me in making good decisions. But sometimes I do too much research, confuse myself, overwhelm myself and then just disregard it all...leaving me at square one and with a little less time (okay, okay...a LOT less time). I'm very exhaustive in my research. I researched tricycles for 4 days. FOUR. EFFING. DAYS. And then I ended up at the toy store so Jayna could pick out her own. Four days of research did me NO good.
- Procrastination. The fact that I struggle with this may very well be the understatement of the century. I do everything at the last minute. When I make scrapbooking gifts for others, I generally make them the night before. And while I do work well under pressure, it's extremely stressful to work this way. I still do an outstanding job, but I could have done an outstanding job and then gotten more than 2 hours of sleep because I wouldn't have had to stay up all hours of the night finishing the project. I haven't the slightest clue how to fix this one.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Five for Friday Catch-up Edition: Struggle
I know...it's Wednesday. I've now officially missed not one, but TWO Five for Fridays. I had ideas planned out for both, but they were apparently weak and stupid because I can't remember them. Today's first edition is entitled Things With Which I Struggle. Here goes:
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